Friday, September 12, 2008

Things I've Been Missing Lately

It's been weeks since posted last and for the first time since I stated this thing I have no excuses to explain it. I just didn't want to . It feels odd saying that, like I am being too honest or something, but the truth is right now, I don't care.

That said, my family has been going through some really tough times the past few weeks and if that comes off like I am fishing for sympathy....well, I am really not, but I sure would like to blow off some steam.

Things I've been Missing Lately:

  1. This Blog: I know I am not the greatest writer or speller or....well, you get the idea, but I love to write here and hate that things I have no control over have changed (even temporarily) my love of this blog. It sucks and I am not happy about it.
  2. Hockey: I want the season to start NOW. It seems like forever since I've watched the Leafs lose.
  3. High School/ College: I miss those care free days, when I thought a hard days work was 4 hours of sitting on my ass listening to a prof. Youth really is wasted on the young and I fear I may have wasted some of mine.
  4. Life Before Blackberry: I miss the way life was before this vile little device forced its way into my life.
  5. Retro Fast Food: I want to go back to 1986 and have a Big Mac, but in the original Styrofoam container, fuck that cardboard crap. Remember those? I loved the little "squeak" they made when you opened one. I would sit, feathered hair, pinned jeans and all and eat without a single thought about trans fats or cholesterol. Ignorance is bliss.
  6. My Mom: I miss the relationship I had with her. She was everything to me growing up, but that all changed after I was married. Oddly enough, this is the same time my relationship with my Dad improved. What would Freud say about that?
  7. Opportunities: So many times I didn't do or try something for fear of looking the fool. Even now I turn down chances to do some very cool things because of this hang up. I don't like feeling this way, but the truth is....I always have.
That's all for now. Funny, I just went back and reread everything and I do seem a bit angry...maybe even crazed. I used the "F word" for the first time here. Sorry if this all seems a little crazy, but I just have lots of things to deal with at the moment and if feels good to get it out.


Mungo Says Bah! said...

I'll make a toast to you (albeit one of lemon aid powder and water) while in Algonquin this next week - hope the thought of that helps at least a tiny bit.

Cheers - take care,


WOLFMAN said...

oh jimmy boy get back to the woods and DEAL WITH IT.....

Anonymous said...

If cliches can help, here are a few;

You can never go back.

You have to let your mother go and love your wife.

You don't know what you've got till it's gone.

The darkest part of the night comes just before the dawn.

The present is a gift, that's why they call it the present.

Of course, on the bright side, Jim, your life sounds pretty good to me. I mean you own your own canoe for god's sake. I'm almost 80 and I could never afford a canoe.
From where I stand, you are just wasting more of your youth pining away for what's gone. By the time you figure out everything you've lost, more has gone out the door.